I had a dream last night regarding my calling. It has been an ongoing tension most of my adult life. Here are single sentences that summarize times of my walk.
1982 - I am called by God and I am invincible.
1985 - I am called by God and I have a hope for future ministry.
1990 - I am called by God but I am not able to fulfill it now.
1992 - I have a call but how can I fulfill it?
1995 - I have a call and I will prepare for it.
2005 - I am cursed with a call that I am not able to fulfill.
2011 - I am called by God.